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[Tuesday
March 15th, 2005
10:44am] |
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She will be loved ~Maroon 5 |
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So I decided to give myself an early spring break present and not go to soc today. Of course that means just more time to study for my midterm tomorrow, and to pack for Thursday. I am so in need of spring break, only thing is it better be sunny at least one day dring break that I dont have to work. I feel a little guilty missing class when I dont have to, I am such a goody good sometimes, it really wont kill me to not go to one class right?? Oh well, I'll study and work out to make up for it. This post was really pointeles huh?? Eh last one till after spring break. It will be a good one at least, I get to see a few people I havent seen for quiet a while, a few in paticular but you know... SO anyways everyone have a wonderful nest few weeks!!! :)
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[Saturday
March 12th, 2005
9:17pm] |
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I use to love this site in high school http://www.emode.com And I remembered about it tonight. So being one of "those people" Who post their test results even though no one really cares, I was bored and we all have to do it at least once. and hey these were actually pretty funny. One actually told me the exact date I was going to get married. hmmm...
( quizes, come'on you know you want to look ;) )
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[Saturday
March 12th, 2005
6:42pm] |
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It's not just me ~Rascal Flatts |
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So I'm sitting here, not really wanting to do the loads upon loads of homework that I have so I thought I would at least update a little.
It's been such a long time, first off the time away has been really nice, I got some things that needed to be figured out, I didnt get them completly figured out; but I'm in a better place. So where to begin?? School is going well, I'm taking 17 credits this term the most I've ever taken, but I am surprizenly handling them pretty well. I am pretty on top of things school wise which if you knew me was a rarety. I really think it helps being actually interestsed and passionate about what your learning and having the hot guy sitting next to you doesn't hurt either....
What else oh you are looking at the newest Zeta Tau Alpha girl. I actually joined a sorority, I had always been interested in them, but the Portland campus didn't have them, so I never got that expreience. But I went to a few parties over the past two weeks, and as of last night I am officially a part of the sorority. YAY!!! Its really fun, all the girls are jsut wonderful. Life is in a good place right now, a very busy place. But its going good. I still ocasinally think about him, but I think whatever hapends. I am ready to put into god's hands and trust him that what ever it is he wants to happen, will happen. For better or for worse, it will all turn out good eventually.
Spring break is in 5 days, even though I am so happy here, it is going to be absolutly wonderful to get out and relax well I have homework, but at least I can sleep in. I'm excited to be home to see some old friends, to go to my church and jsut to be home for a short while.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful night, and have a fabulous tomorrow!! The weather here has been so incredible warm and sunny, I hope its like that where you are. :)
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[Friday
March 4th, 2005
9:43pm] |
I try to refrain from posting these, but I just thought this was too funny.
Ah how I dont want to do my homework at all.
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| ♥Goodbye for a while♥ |
[Wednesday
February 23rd, 2005
7:55pm] |
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I know I’ve said this before, but this time I think that I really believe myself. I need to take a break from all this. I spend entirely way too much time on here. I think this is one of the bases behind my problems lately I hid behind here thinking that as long as I have friends on here and in that I don’t need to go out there and put myself out there and have the possibility. I also think that’s why I've been hanging onto him for so long, as long as I had the daydream of him and I then I wouldn’t have to look, I wouldn’t have to put myself out there again and get hurt. It has taken me so long to finally be ok with myself, and I am so proud of myself for being able to do that, but I need a break. I need to get out there; I need to see what’s out there. I have to I’m a little scared and a little nervous but I have myself and I have so much, that I need to. I love you all, and I feel awful about this I just friended someone on here and this will be the first post she reads, I am sorry for that I understand if you wish to take me off. I love you all dearly and I will talk to you all again, I am sure of it. ♥
~*Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.
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[Wednesday
February 23rd, 2005
7:16pm] |
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I can't help but feel a little lonely.
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[Wednesday
February 23rd, 2005
5:53pm] |
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You lift me up ~Rascal Flatts |
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You know how I said I was going to stop thinking about him?? yea well it work for about an hour. I need help, no I need a someone right now. I need him, well I dont need him per sae, yes I do, I suppose I could live without him, but I dont really want to. This isnt making any sense, Im tryng to talk myself out of this, and well its not working, although not much to talk myself out of since I havent seen him for a while, although only 25 more days then a few more after that then I can see him. So what am I going to do for these next 25 days?? I need a someone to keep my mind off of him. Well this was a pathetic entry if i do say so myself, I really need to go out and get myself a life outside of school. So I'm listening to Rascal Flatts, not the best for when Im in this mood. Im gonna go now, before I dig myself a deeper hole. :)
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[Monday
February 21st, 2005
7:45pm] |
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Red dirt road ~Brooks and Dunn |
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"White Houses"
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
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[Sunday
February 20th, 2005
6:36pm] |
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Destiny ~Zero 7 |
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Hmm so Im back, Its really weird going home now. First time in two weeks, and the longest Ive ever gone. Its different than it was last semester bc even though I went to school I still came home every weekend. And now I dont, and now I have to drive an hour instead of 10 minuets to get back. And then church was good. I dont know I mean now I'm fine but when I first get back it was rough there for a few hours I do get lonely not having anyone to talk to. I really hope that it does get better.
Then honestly its been a while but I started to think about him again. And I dont know why, was it because i was in Portland again, and thats where he is?? IDK Ive been doing fine, but lately.... I havent even seen hime for like a month now, the longest time Ive ever had a crush almost a year, hey thats good for me, but I think I know that deep down inside that nothing could ever amount to anything. Why?? I think it would just be too complicated, the age difference isnt all that bad a few years, but I think that the other people that are involved would get hurt or wouldnt understand. I also think that I myself the drama queen that I am sometimes am making this way bigger than it is. There are alot of people here but I am trying so hard to stay true, and not go there. At least for the next month or so. I am doing so well right now, Ive studied really hard for my test tomorrow, and Ive been better focused lately with out that distraction. Which is kind of odd, going from an all girls school to now a co ed you would think it would be the opposite, but its not. I dont know. I think honetly right now I do need to focus on myself and school, friends not him or any other hims that are going to come. And if its ment to be with him then by some maricle he'll get that job down here or I will see him again before Summer.
So then my updates are always so long. I did however finally watch the finiale to SATC and the second to last epi really hit home just with her leaving all her friends and granted Im not going to Paris but still sometimes its even harder going only 60 miles away and being so close and yet so far away. Hmm I just think that well I dont know what I am thinking, I think that will come with time. But Im looking at the time and I have to be somewhere at 7:00 so I should say good bye and that I hope you weekends were good and to have a happy tomorrow!! :)
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[Thursday
February 17th, 2005
5:57pm] |
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FRIENDSI have been craving to watch this lately. I love it! |
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Megan I hope you dont mind but I had to post this. Its too funny! So curtosy of ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tolia14
"Do you think it's trendy for young kids in Japan to get tatoos of words written in english? Do you think they're walking around over there like, "Hey Kim check this out. I just got it yesterday it means Love and Water. Ohh that's sexy." - Daniel Tosh, comedian
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[Tuesday
February 15th, 2005
10:10am] |
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Stonger~ Britney Spears |
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oh I hope they call. They said by today, they had a few more, but that I should know either way by today. Think good good thoughts!! I hope they call!!!
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[Sunday
February 13th, 2005
3:40pm] |
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Tift Merritt~ Good hearted man |
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 Ah I just couldnt help myself. Its too cute for words. Happy Valentines day to everyone.
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P.S go look at my new layout! Isnt it just divine? I love it. Thanks to the wonderful darkicedphoenix . Have a good rest of the day.
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[Saturday
February 12th, 2005
7:35pm] |
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Live for today Natalie Grant |
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So I know its kind of late, but Im new to all of the lent and everything that goes with it. That sounds very poorly worded but give me a break I've been doing homework all day,my mind is blown. But baqk to that, what Im trying to get accross that even though lent has been going on since Wed, I have been thinking about it and I finally found something two things in fact to give up. One is to, lately Ive been obsessed with my journal layout, Ive ben working like hours a day trying to perfect everything, and today I decided that that was it. Im not going to do it anymore, frankly it has been taking up way too much of my time, I need a break. And the second thing is to stop worrying so much about finding a guy, since Ive moved here I dont really think I've been myself, because Ive been so worried about trying to impres people. So I'm going to stop that for a while. I need to concentrate on myself and school, not finding a guy. Just thought I would put that out there.
Other than that life has been going pretty well. Busy obviously with the lack of updates. I cant believe I've already been at school, well not even a full week. Not really because its been so much fun, but dang has it been busy. I have a ton of classes Im taking 17 credits this smester, the most Ive ever taken, and between getting my room finished and school, its been really busy. Im still missing homw a bit but its really not as bad as I thought it might be. I feel different here, even though at Portland I knew the area like the abck of my hand, and I had a ton of friends there, its basically the opposite here I dont now alot of people and I dont know McMInnville that well yet. I feel almost more comfortable here. Its (this is sad I know) my first fulll weekend that Ive actually stayed at school, and not gone home even for a day. And honestly it really doesnt feel that bad, its nice. Im enjoying it. I dont know what that means at all. I'm kind of clueless.
So thats really been my life lately. School and more school. Its going good. Nothing really to complain of, and I dont think there will be. I hope all is well with everyone else. That school and life is going well. So I say goodnight as I am going to go hop in the shower and then do some more homework. I have to make up rubrics for a health class, I thought that they would be easy, but was I wrong, they are really hard to think up consise and clear subjects and scoring criteria. So I'm off to do that. Good Night!! :~)
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[Saturday
February 12th, 2005
1:55pm] |
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LJ Friends Meme by coolerq• You must tell 6 people about this game.
• s is the one that you love.
• r is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about katie.
• theresa is the one who knows you very well.
• danielle is your lucky star.
• the book of love is the song that matches with sterling.
• breathe is the song for ryan.
• I shall believe is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and fell in love with a boy is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
hehe I love these things totally reminds me of middle school. Hope everyone is doing well, and that school/life is going good. :)
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[Tuesday
February 8th, 2005
6:01pm] |
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So I think I'm finally beginning to feel it. The feelings of being at a new school not knowing a soul. I mean I have my sister which is nice, but still she isnt here all the time. And I've stared to meet some people, but noone really yet. I just kind of want to go back. I love my classes, all of them I'm actually excited to go to my classes which is the way it should be right? And I know I didnt transfer schools for friends, but for majours, but still I hate being all alone, you know?? Not one person on my floor has even come by to say hello, not even my R.A and I know that I could and I probably will, but every one always has their door, closed so I'm not sure if they are even there. Its only the second day of classes so I should give it time, I dont know I kind o fjust want to go home, but I know that I cant and that it will get better. Sorry for being such a downer but I just needed to get this out a little bit. I hope everyone is having a good day, and a good night. Im off to start homework, I hope that it is easy only 10 problems or so I havent even looked at it yet so...... Until then, Good Night. :~)
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[Sunday
February 6th, 2005
7:28pm] |
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So I'm here. I honestly dont really know my feelings as of yet. Some minuts are better than others, I think that its just going to take time. My room is nice although there arent many outlets which is kind of annoying, but hey if thats the biggest annoyance? Thats pretty good I suppose. So on to tommorow. It should be good I think the distraction of classes helps. I think however right now I am going to get ready for bed and finish unpacking, which I probably wont get vey far but Ive gotten a lot done so far. But I hope you had a wonderful night all of you. Good night, and have a wonderful tomorrow!!
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[Tuesday
February 1st, 2005
5:57pm] |
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Hmm so I cant believe that I move in 5 days. Its so weird. Im not in denial or anything, but I just sometimes forget almost. Like today I was thinking about what we were going to on Sunday after church, then I remember that there will be no more "after church" at least for a while. Things are changing and let me tell you honestly I am scared, I'm scared that it wont be the same that it will just be all wrong. An I know that even though everyone says that we are still going to stay close I mean really we all know when we say that. We are going to drift apart, we wont be in eachothers everyday life. Its just never going to be the same again. I finally find somewhat of everything I've been looking for for a while and now its going to be all gone or at least different. You know I had a dream the other night that he moved down there?? He got a job, which in reality is possible, but you know its wont happen, I mean hold out hope you know? Be optimistic but then there comes down to a time where I need to be realistic as well. Im leaving and no things wont be the same again, I suppose I'll truly find out my close friends the ones who I do still stay somewhat close to and I suppose there will be others down there as well. Its not the end of the world right?? just pretty darn close, lol ok now sounding like a dramatic teenager, I'll be going now. Hope all is well with everyone. :~)
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[Saturday
January 29th, 2005
10:15pm] |
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So I think I need help, lol I have been couped up way to long in this house so my lj is oh so very pretty now. I took a basic layout from a community but I added stuff. At least on the upside I now kind of now know how to do this lj stuff Im learning I give total props though to those of you who actually know what to do. Its hard stuff!!! So...... what do ya think???
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[Wednesday
January 26th, 2005
8:50am] |
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Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be, yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be, who you want to be yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be (who you want to be)
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose *~Switchfoot "this is your life" So off to work in a half an hour, hopefully the kids will be good.
I hope everyones day is going good. And I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the day!!!
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[Friday
January 21st, 2005
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You know every one chooses their own path; it’s just so hard to know the right one.
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